Tuesday, August 28, 2012

coffee date

One of my favorite people online, Casey Leigh, posts a coffee date blog every so often.  She writes as though you're sitting down to enjoy some coffee (or ice cream!) with her and I always love reading her thoughts and looking through her pictures.  It feels like we're actually sharing a relationship and a date through the computer screen.

{{Please take some time to check out Casey's blog ... it is beyond amazing.}} 


  I thought I would take some inspiration from her and start our own form of coffee dates here on homemade bliss.  

Sit down, grab a coffee (or another treat!) and let's get to know each other.   

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If we were sharing some coffee together right now at my tiny red patio table, I would share with you how incredibly inspired I'm feeling lately.  I would also ask you to ignore the potted herbs that were drying up (it's been a hot summer and I just cant keep anything green alive!), but that's besides the point.  The warm, blueberry almond scones I just took out of the oven would go perfectly with our strong brew (in reality, we probably would be enjoying some fresh fruit instead because who even has time to bake during these crazy summer months?).  You would hear about how I'm loving my life as a new momma, but I'm often scared silly with the crazy amount of decisions life presents when you have a little one.  We would laugh at the crazy, embarrassing moments I've caught myself in lately (living in a small town where everyone knows you can be quite interesting...).  I would ask you about what's been on your heart lately and how your summer is going.

As our coffee cooled off, I would share how I've been trying to have quiet time every morning before the whole house wakes up.  Some mornings are better than others.  I would share with you that I'm slowly reading through the book of Proverbs and Matthew.  Proverbs has given me insight and direction with how I should be living my life.  I never really took the time to realize how poetic it actually is.  I usually just get caught up in the "rights" and "wrongs" and don't look past the words.  Matthew has taught me so much about Jesus, His plans for me and the awe-inspiring miracles He's performed.  I would sheepishly tell you that I'm justs starting to understand the concept of grace and it is transforming my perspective on life.  It's almost like I'm able to read the bible in a different light lately.  We would then go on to discover that we're not all that different in our journeys and we would feel refreshed from being able to "be real" about sharing the raw-ness of finding our way through having faith with each other.

I would tell you I've finally come to peace with the decision to become a stay-at-home momma.  Leaving the coffee house ministry I started over the past three years was heartbreaking, but it felt so right.  I share with you I'm not quite sure how to do this full-time momma stuff and deal with the change.  I'm trying to just be still and quiet let things happen for a while before getting overwhelmed.  It felt so clear to me that this is what God wanted me to do and it is so comforting to rest in that.  

We would start to talk about some of our dreams.  I would share how I dream of a big farm house with little sheds (can you imagine the art studios?!) and more gardens than grass.  We would go on and on about inspiration and the little things we would love to do in this life.  I would ask you what really inspires you and makes you feel alive.

Before you know it, our mugs would be empty and the babe would be wanting to be fed again.  Maybe we can do this again soon?!






Thursday, August 16, 2012

whoa babe. slow down.


Lately, life around here has been beautiful whirlwind of sleep schedules, family hikes, farmer market veggies, finding time for creativity, and soaking up every last bit of summer.  It's been interesting to see my shift in perspective since becoming a mama.  Living life has become more about slowing down and trying to enjoy every moment instead of racing around and doing, doing, doing.  I still have to remind myself daily to just be and enjoy the moment, but it's refreshing to have a new found contentment and peace.  I think I always equated slowing down with not being good enough or being successful enough.  I'm able to see how incredibly false that perspective is now (even though it still nags at me on and off ... just keeping it real).

Having this cute little babe has made me realize how fast life literally flies by.  I feel like just yesterday I was holding a tiny newborn in a hospital bed and now he's already almost 5 months and starting to eat cereal?  Hold the phone.  What?!  He just makes my heart burst. 
     








Wednesday, August 8, 2012

when the quiet moments sink in

Lately I have avoided the quiet moments. The moments when your thoughts settle, sort themselves out, and start to flood your mind and soul.  Usually I love being quiet--it's when inspiration hits me and gets me giddy.  It's when I can hear God nudge and whisper.  It's when I'm able to see the beauty in the simple things--the way my love's eyes crinkle when he smiles, the way sunflowers turn towards the sun, or the green beauty of fields blowing rhythmically in the wind.

I think I've avoided being quiet lately because I'm fearful.  I can tell there are a bundle of things brewing up inside my chest and I'm nervous to unleash it all.  Instead of embracing and seeking out time to reflect, I am busy doing anything and everything.  Some times I don't even shut off my mind--I continue to let the anxious thoughts of absolutely nothing run circles in my mind.

Perfectionism.
Fear of falling short.
Fear of the unknown.

Today I was able to sit down and breathe. I think we all have seasons when we would rather ignore life.  We get tired or too comfortable, so we put our days on repeat and busy our bodies and minds until they are numb.  Thank goodness God understands this imperfect journey of life we're on.  He gets us before we even "get" ourselves. He plants seeds in us that he just waits for us to unleash and comprehend.

God knows the anxious thoughts of our hearts.  He plants and harvests in us the crazy dreams that breed uncertainty and fear.  He has awesome purpose for us through seasons of quiet and seasons of uncertainty.  He is all knowing--He sees all of us.  He knows every shortcoming, every fear, every weird thought, every insecurity ... yet He still loves us.

He still loves us. 

Through loud seasons.  Quiet seasons.  Stormy and broken seasons.  Seasons of ignorance and seasons of complete awareness.

All of this to say that we all have purpose.  There's no reason to search for unattainable perfection.  Once we accept that God sees all of us and still loves us, it's a little bit easier to search for and live out our purpose.

There's no reason to fear the quiet moments, because we don't need to fear imperfection.

Here's to living real and living out loud the passions and purpose the God has imprinted on our minds and hearts.  Let's unleash ourselves from the fear of the quiet and the grasp of perfection and just be.

Just be.


{{This post was entirely fueled by too much coffee and was highly therapeutic.  I now realize my words could make absolutey no sense to you, but in embracing imperfection I'm choosing to overlook at fact.  Enjoy!}}