Friday, June 8, 2012

i'll always be a dreamer

Dreaming is so easy, but following through on something is the hardest part.  I am such a dreamer.  These dreams of mine are thought about so often that I bury them in my mind and lock them up so tight that I believe they can never be reality.  I often defeat myself even before I start.    

Taking the plunge and silencing those nasty fears and voices is an art.  An art that I am attempting to get better at.  Aren't we all?  Perhaps it will always be a battle throughout life.

Seasons come and go throughout life.  I am currently exiting a gloomy season of life.  A season that was polluted with exhaustion, bitterness, pride, and negativity.  Throughout this last month, God has spoken to me through new dreams, determination, and excitement.  I'm at a crossroads that is so beautiful and full of life.  This new-found zest for life and eagerness is easily beaten down, but for some reason I'm stronger lately.  There is a delicate strength and vibe about me that feels real.  So real that I want to bottle it up for those days that are a little more grey.

Grace is an intricate part of possessing this new strength.  The fears that often suffocate and bury me are set free with the understanding of grace.  I don't have to be perfect or accomplish perfection--such an elementary concept--but a major struggle of mine.  Once I accepted the gift of grace (and continuously remind myself to accept it), a veil was removed from my view.  My perspective shifted.  I realized that I am enough and I have all I need to accomplish whatever is placed on my heart.  Perfection is suffocating.  I am breathing fresh air.  

Perfection is always a battle that I will continue to fight, but for now I am going to celebrate.  Celebrate the little victories along the way.  The realization that I am part of God's awesome body with passions and talents that He is waiting for me to use to accomplish His dreams.  What a journey.

2 comments:

  1. I loved this! I resonate with every part of it. Coming out of a gloomy long season as well, and ready to embrace (and bottle up) this new peace I have in life... I want to bottle bits up for those days the doom and gloom try to sneak back in...

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    1. Thanks for the comments Julie! I'm happy my words resonated with you. Bottle up that joy and peace as much as you can!

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